I am a level 3 qualified Powertex tutor. In 2017 I am delighted to announce that I will be adding a new type of Powertex workshops to the ones I already offer. In 2016 my family was hit with an emotional roller coaster. My husband was rushed to Papworth Hospital and placed on the urgent waiting list for a heart transplant.After weeks of waiting on the outside. Feeling utterly helpless. The phone call telling me that a possible heart had been found. The kaleidoscope of emotions that bombarded every inch of my being is impossible to adequately describe, I felt out of control. Everything spiraled into a vortex of hope, fear, excitement and nausea; and underlying all of the above was one other feeling. The feeling of guilt, it was subtle for sure, in comparison to all the other emotions that collided and collapsed into each other as the news sunk in. But it was definitely there. Lurking uncomfortably amidst all that hope. Whispering to me that as my family was being offered a lifeline, another family somewhere had had that lifeline taken away from them. Then the emotional roller coaster eased into a different gear, as I was told that after undergoing lengthy testing, they were unable to use the heart in this case. What do you do when this happens? What can you do? There is only one thing you can do. Continue to wait. And hope against hope for the next time. All the while trying to ignore that persistent little whisper ‘your just waiting for someone else to die.’ Logically you know that is not the case. Logically you know, from all the personal accounts you make it your business to read, that donor families gain some form of comfort in knowing that their loved one has done an amazing thing. From knowing that their loved one has passed on the most amazing gift ever. Logically you know all of this. But for me anyway, that sense of guilt subtly, but stubbornly refused to budge.I had two more phone calls like the first one. The kaleidoscopic assault on the senses was just as vivid each time. And yes, the devastation you feel when, for whatever reason, the heart cannot be used hits you like a ten tonne brick each time. But thankfully, for me anyway that lurking, unjustified whisper did start to recede.Eventually reality sunk in. The reality that, sadly, the donor would have passed away regardless of whether my husband received their heart or not.And then a miracle happened. Another phone call. And then you get the news that yes. This is it. This time it really is happening.And after hours, and hours, and hours in surgery you get to see your loved one. And your loved one is totally away with the fairies. And battered and bruised. And looking pretty damn rough. But they have survived. They have made it through. They are alive.The gratitude we as a family have, will always have, to the donor and their family is impossible to convey. We think of them often, and raise a glass to them when we gave a toast at Christmas. And on special occasions. And will continue to do so.They will never be forgotten. They are our heroes.The other heroes are the staff at Papworth Hospital. Every one of them. Sometimes those surgeons perform two heart transplants in one day. Can you imagine that? Whenever I think I’ve had a stressful day. I remind myself just how shattered they must be at the end of a shift. Not just the surgeons though. Everyone at that hospital works so hard, dealing with the ripples of organ donation every single day.Ripples of joy, devastation, anger, frustration and many many more. Including those ripples of guilt.The guilt I felt has completely subsided now. I am now at peace with the wonderful gift that has been given to our family. And we give thanks daily.Which leads me onto my very small way of giving something back.As a level 3 Powertex tutor I run Powertex sculpting workshops. This is my business, and is slowly but surely picking up again, after being put on hold for much of last year.Alongside my regular workshops, I now offer Powertex Art 4 A Heart Workshops.Any time you see my workshops advertised as Powertex Art 4 A Heart Workshops, you know that a percentage of the fee charged will be donated straight to The Papworth Hospital Charity. http://www.papworthhospitalcharity.org Details of these Powertex workshops can be found on my facebook page http://www.facebook.com/artmuralsbydonnamcghie and on my website http://www.artandmurals.co.ukIf you fancy coming along and creating something beautiful with Powertex, whilst also contributing in a very small way to the fantastic work done by the Papworth Hospital Transplant Team then please do come along.I’d love to see you.
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